Ok, so i was reading a book and the author said that every day, one should make a list of five things that are good in one's life. Anything from getting the first shower (read: hot water) to seeing a spring crocus breaking through the snow. Some days, it's so easy that it hardy makes sense to make a list. The blessings just flow. Other days, the list is a bit more of a struggle.
Don't get me wrong. I know that i'm a blessed, spoiled little brat. That i live in a big ole house without foreclosure hanging over my head. That my family is healthy. That i don't have the "sturm und drang" of so many. I guess i just look for the extra-super-special events daily without really appreciating the little daily bonuses.
Not to mention the "anti-blessings". As the country song says, "some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers". That when i prayed to be pregnant right after Alessandra was weaned and then wasn't (would have missed Christian). That i didn't get the first guy that i thought that i wanted to marry (i'll let you wonder on that one) as i would have missed on Joe. That we didn't stay forever in Gahanna (would have missed ABQ and i love it here).
So, really, despite my grumbling, my life is pretty easy and good. I just have the eyes of a five year old and am looking for the pony. The lollipop moment every day when i can clap my hands and smile over something instead of just appreciating the calm goodness of the everyday.
Off to make dinner (in a kitchen with electricity, where it's not raining in behind my cabinets and there are not vermin infestations). Have a good evening yourself.
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